Post by dragonyear on Mar 27, 2011 21:57:51 GMT -8
Rain poured at unpredictable times and rhythms, the drenching showers barely register, only giving me the slightest reminder that there is an outside reality
For today I live deep inside the echoing hollow of myself more than any other
It is as though when someone addresses me the sound of their voice has to travel down a long hallway before it even has a chance of me hearing them
I am at an unfamiliar heightened state of emotion, tears of longing roll from my eyes with an undeniable passion I have never known
I weave through a busy city full of people, each single one is hideous to me, they do not even appear human
It is because I am searching for your features in every face I see and when It is not there I am flooded with more disappointment than I can process
I keep looking for you even though I do know you are not here, but in my delirious state I can only hope that my love for you can twist the very fabric of reality and manifest you in my presence on the merit of my desire, which feels other-wordily
Now I spend time in this mindset which i can only describe as strange brew, when separation anxiety reaches levels of spirituality and then filters through leaving the body drained
I feel like a single digit lost in the notes of a complex math equation, a being lost in a quantum theory
Cars roar by in an endless drenched parade, mechanical animals whose engines wear at my soil born soul
I am a ghost in my own life, hovering a wasteland, truly invisible
In the chaotic turmoil and relentless barrage of sound, light and cold, I continue on my benumbed travel
I am a spectral shell of myself yet there is enough density to contain the whirlwind of emotion that seems to power my every movement
I do not care If I unravel as so much string on these streets and my insides are raveled on display for thousands of uncaring strangers
They make me feel more alone than I could ever be by myself
For today I live deep inside the echoing hollow of myself more than any other
It is as though when someone addresses me the sound of their voice has to travel down a long hallway before it even has a chance of me hearing them
I am at an unfamiliar heightened state of emotion, tears of longing roll from my eyes with an undeniable passion I have never known
I weave through a busy city full of people, each single one is hideous to me, they do not even appear human
It is because I am searching for your features in every face I see and when It is not there I am flooded with more disappointment than I can process
I keep looking for you even though I do know you are not here, but in my delirious state I can only hope that my love for you can twist the very fabric of reality and manifest you in my presence on the merit of my desire, which feels other-wordily
Now I spend time in this mindset which i can only describe as strange brew, when separation anxiety reaches levels of spirituality and then filters through leaving the body drained
I feel like a single digit lost in the notes of a complex math equation, a being lost in a quantum theory
Cars roar by in an endless drenched parade, mechanical animals whose engines wear at my soil born soul
I am a ghost in my own life, hovering a wasteland, truly invisible
In the chaotic turmoil and relentless barrage of sound, light and cold, I continue on my benumbed travel
I am a spectral shell of myself yet there is enough density to contain the whirlwind of emotion that seems to power my every movement
I do not care If I unravel as so much string on these streets and my insides are raveled on display for thousands of uncaring strangers
They make me feel more alone than I could ever be by myself