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Post by Prophet on Apr 9, 2011 23:55:31 GMT -8
From Loathing to Love
I love that I love me.
I remember back to the days when I hated myself. Alone, and lonely Just getting up to greet the day seemed like such a chore. Back in the days of self disdain, It was hard to even look at myself in the mirror. Avoiding the gaze of my most critical critic, myself.
In those days, I would hide away from the world, Lost in television, or meaningless internet games, I would aspire to the nothingness that would help me to forget who I thought I was.
Hating myself allowed me to despise the world even more, blaming all that's outside of myself for all the world's ills. Projecting my internal displeasure on everyone else.
So, sad, so mad, Seldom glad.
And because of you, my friends and family I have learned to love myself. Not for who I want to be or who I think I am, but for the kind, caring person that I actually am.
Now that I love myself, beyond delusions, I can leave myself open to truly love you all that much more.
Without the blackness covering my heart, I am now open. The portal that is my heart is now open before you.
Now I truly love you, As I have come to love myself.
Beyond all the pain, I will feel again, I know this love is true.
I love you all, for the mirror to my soul has opened through your hearts, and that true spark of friendship in your eyes.
I hated hating me.
For I love to Love
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